29.12.07
today was POTBLESS at charissa's.
it was a very very nua experience.
like you just sink in the seat watching RATRACE.
which is an extremely ridiculous movie. but hilarious.
and then there's dg, worship time, stuff like that.
i shall let the pictures speak for themselves.
but honestly, i was so full that i couldn't eat dinner.
btw, ryan your kebabas are nice:)
had fun throwing gummy bears and aiming them for your mouth with zhuanmei and dingdong.
it was really hilarious lah.
oh yes! i can go third service tomsrw!:) with all stars and all.:)
"rain rain go away, DON'T ever come back again."
of course im not saying literally.
but there are some things that are making me feel this way.
ohh and i love this song that laura posted on her blog,
even though i have no idea how it goes.
anyway,
Stained Glass Masquerade.
Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strongI know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart
But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay
it's the end of the year.
and im pretty scared.
cause i do hold high expectations for myself next year.
and i am pretty tired.
like when charissa told us to see the things that we want to see happening next year.
i couldn't picture it.
literally. im just tired.
i wished i could just see jesus.
just he and i.
just him alone is all i'll need.
life is so whatever.
and dg's like so far apart.
it sure doesn't feel like we're family.
not even close.
i don't ever think i can be real.
he calls me beloved, but it sure doesn't feel that way.
p.s laura if you're reading this, i must tell you that your blog is so user friendly. it doesn't have those preview popups when i hover over your photos. it's coolsome can:) and i like the song that you put on. it's exactly how i feel right now. im not being sarcastic, nono. it's just that you took away the taggy.:)
dance those blues away...