22.2.08
i feel so so so much better after dance class.
wow. my bad vibes are like gone.
i just love dance.
i'm not a fast learner, i have to get accustomed to the steps first.
but i love it so much.
i love ballet, and it's strict rigid techniques.
i love hiphop, and it's sleek movements.
i love jazz, with it's fluid like gestures.
i love indian hiphop(michelle was teaching me), it's damn cool.
dance is rejuveinating.
i just love letting my body flow.
not the best dancer ever. not anna pavlova,not margot fonteyn.
but you know what? it's not about your skills but about your love.
i am starting to fall in love with character.
the stylishness of it. the rhythms. gossshhhhhhh.
heh. i just love it. i love music, i love moving.
michelle and the rest were giving me christian names.
michelle wanted to call me kate.
but miss shymala thinks i look more like a cheryl.
i am addicted to muffinsssssssss.
i felt so down and out this week.
eveything just wasn't going my way.
i just didn't know how to react, and i ended up hurting others. amd hurting myself too.
i really really wanted to break down and cry a few times in class.
i really didn't want things to turn out the way it did in primary school.
yup. but today was different. im sorry i can't phrase it properly, but when i was on the bus ride to pasir ris, and the train ride as well, jesus just showed me so much. sososo much, and i just felt his deep peace came in and overwhelm me. i felt like crying at that time too, but it wasn't like the previous one. instead it was more like tears of delight and of the awareness that jesus is with me.
i just felt him drawing nearer to me, and holding me close in his embrace. there was such great hope in me. to feel him, let him consume me in all of his grace.
gosh, that feeling is sosososo good. and way shiok-er than any thing.
and to look at the rain drizzles on the glass pane, it reminds me of jesus in the way that i love so much.
so refreshing, so cool.. there's just something that i can't describe about rain that i love.
He hugs me and embraces me, and draws me close to Him. never let me go, my saviour.
see His love for you. the tenderness between a father and a young child. nothing in the world disturbs you. just with daddy, on the same boat as you, no storms worry you.
gosh, i think im actualy gonna cry.
it's the power of the cross
the beauty of it all.
tender loving grace.
the wonders of His love.
i wanna watch step up.
never desert your girlfriends for any guy. it's just not worth it.
dance those blues away...